[writing] Add a number of writing things from 2012, 2016, 2017, and 2018

0xdevalias · 0xdevalias · commit 712fe1824755 · 2018-12-23T13:41:46.000+11:00
diff --git a/_writing/2012-11-29-left-unsaid.md b/_writing/2012-11-29-left-unsaid.md
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+---
+title: "Left unsaid"
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- communication
+- truth
+- courage
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10152271559860414
+---
+Regardless of reason, positive words never said are much worse than words that aren't said in the right way, the right time or the right place. Think how you would feel if that person never got the chance to hear what you want to say to them. Now go out and tell them, it's not too late until it really is too late.
diff --git a/_writing/2016-07-26-some-truths.md b/_writing/2016-07-26-some-truths.md
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+---
+title: "Some truths"
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- communication
+- connection
+- adventure
+- play
+- truth
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10157158146940414
+---
+Communicate openly, honestly, thoroughly.
+Cuddle, adventure, explore, play.
+Connect deeply, wholly, mindfully.
+Free of control, possession and the monopoly of time.
+These are some truths I have come to know.
diff --git a/_writing/2016-08-19-choices.md b/_writing/2016-08-19-choices.md
@@ -24,4 +24,4 @@ Hate has turned us blind.
 Our choices give us power,
 Or lead us to despair.
 The wisdom lays before you.
-The question: do you care?
+The question: do you care?
diff --git a/_writing/2016-08-19-pained-stories.md b/_writing/2016-08-19-pained-stories.md
@@ -1,4 +1,4 @@
----
+ ---
 title: "Pained Stories"
 tags:
 - writing
@@ -9,4 +9,4 @@ crossposted:
 Stories kept reciting.
 Truths we think we know.
 Pains forever haunt us.
-Till we learn to let them go.
+Till we learn to let them go.
diff --git a/_writing/2016-08-24-labels-boundaries.md b/_writing/2016-08-24-labels-boundaries.md
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+---
+title: "Labels. Boundaries."
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- labels
+- boundaries
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10157291056175414
+---
+Labels. Arbitrary boundaries.
+Words without meaning.
+Meanings without words.
+On an infinite timeline,
+Of ever changing feelings.
+How do you bound that which is boundless?
+A spectrum of intensity.
diff --git a/_writing/2017-11-06-choices-consequences-truth-path.md b/_writing/2017-11-06-choices-consequences-truth-path.md
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+---
+title: "Choices and consequences. Truth. Path."
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- reflection
+- choices
+- consequences
+- busy
+- truth
+- path
+- journey
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10159527290130414
+---
+Choices and consequences. It’s easy to be busy, to run from place to place, to do all the things. But why are you doing them? Is it because the things themselves are inherently what you want? Or are they an attempted means to find something? If you’re searching through them, is it effective? Is it doing what you wanted? Or is it an endless search; a repeating story circling and circling? Are the things you want already there, but you’re too ‘busy’ to see? Or maybe you should be more active and stop passively expecting things to fall into place?
+
+Busy is an easy excuse, and an even easier one when you manifest it through your choices. But what happens once it’s there, and you start choosing busy over the things you actually enjoy. What happens when the things you enjoy lose their magic and just turn into more busy? Another mark on a calendar, another reason you can’t do something else. Time and money spent, but for what? At that point is it even fun anymore? Or does it just blend into this grey of busy that seems to multiply and fill everything; draining the colour and passion from the world; blinding you to the things that really matter, the people that matter; making choices not from passion anymore, but from some distorted story on a path winding nowhere.
+
+What is it you truly want? What lies at the heart of all of these choices? Your truth. Your longing. That which ignites you and fills the world with colour and joy. What makes you feel energised? Find it. Cultivate it. Cherish it. This is your truth. This is your path.
diff --git a/_writing/2017-11-19-what-will-be-will-be.md b/_writing/2017-11-19-what-will-be-will-be.md
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+---
+title: "What will be will be"
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- stoic
+- paths
+- journeys
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10159588710630414
+---
+What will be will be. Someone may not talk to me for a day, week, month, year, or more; it doesn’t change what was, and it doesn’t tarnish what could be. Paths diverge; maybe they come back together and we can share new experiences and discover who we’ve become, maybe they don’t. That’s life. And I’m not really phased by that.
diff --git a/_writing/2018-05-16-capitilism-mini-rant.md b/_writing/2018-05-16-capitilism-mini-rant.md
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+---
+title: "Capitilism: mini-rant"
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- capitilism
+- futurism
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10160351428380414
+---
+Life is too hard.., our stupid world basically only values capitalist BS and the means of creating capitalist BS. So if you can't turn the cogs in that stupid system; to then spend all your money and energy existing within the stupid system, then you fail.
diff --git a/_writing/2018-06-01-facing-the-pain.md b/_writing/2018-06-01-facing-the-pain.md
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+---
+title: "Facing the pain"
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- pain
+- feelings
+- connection
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10160408692145414
+---
+These aren't my words, and I don't know the source, but I like them:
+
+> Keeping it in, that’s not brave. Feeling the pain, facing it, that takes courage. It’s ok to let it out.
+
+Sometimes it may feel like we should, or have to, or like we don’t know how to feel the feelings or face the pain. Not knowing is ok, but it’s those times especially that we should reach out in whatever way we feel able, to get the support or help we need, and to do everything we can to care for ourselves. I agree with the quote, but I feel it could be read as a little ‘aggressive’ without this additional caveat.
+
+Know that whether we talk often, or rarely even see each other, if you need to talk I’m a message away. I can’t promise I will fix anything, or solve your problems, but I can listen, and I can share the love and resources I have available however I can.
+
+Even when it feels like the world is against you, like no one cares, no one understands, like you’re trapped alone in that darkness, drowning under it all; there are so many people out there that love you, and care for you. We may just need to reach out a little so that they know we need support.
diff --git a/_writing/2018-06-12-perspective.md b/_writing/2018-06-12-perspective.md
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+---
+title: "Perspective"
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- reflection
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10160449650280414
+---
+It's always interesting when you have a change of scene or perspective, and then from that place, can look back at where you are day to day and truly wonder if it speaks to you.
+
+Understanding the core motivators, and why you choose to do what you do. Are you acting for your true self? Or because some other unconscious aspect is playing itself out through you?
+
+Where you can see small aspects of things that work, within the greater whole, but perhaps the rest of the things encasing that don't really speak to you, and that there is a better assortment of those variables out there that would ignite your passions in the most beautiful way.
+
+When "because I committed to it" or $$ centres on your main reasons for doing something.. you have to question why you continue to choose that aspect.
diff --git a/_writing/2018-06-26-to-our-teachers-guides-thankyou.md b/_writing/2018-06-26-to-our-teachers-guides-thankyou.md
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+---
+title: "To our teachers, guides.. thankyou"
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- reflection
+- gratitude
+- teachers
+- path
+- journey
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10160503371435414
+- https://www.facebook.com/groups/1572811056362032/permalink/1829991100644025/
+---
+This is a shout-out to all the teachers in our life, the guides, those that hold space for us, listen to us, receive us as we are, and through their power, guide us. The obvious and the subtle. The direct and indirect. The long lasting and the brief.
+
+There are so many people that walk with and guide us on our journeys. Whether we notice it (whether they even realise it), the energy, love, compassion and time these people share is a true gift. A gift that goes beyond what we often can even articulate. Those aspects that shape our very being, and can shift us onto a path we didn’t even realise existed, but that speaks directly to our truth.
+
+Far too often in life we are focussed on the next step forward, but it’s important to look back as well, to realise the path we’ve taken, and who has been there for us along the way. A teacher, a friend, an instructor, a lover, perhaps just that chance encounter. Take a moment to truly appreciate all that they have shared with you, and carry that forward in your own capacity to share your gifts with others. Maybe you even feel able to share what it means to you with those that helped you along your path. Even if words aren’t your thing, even if you don’t know how to share it directly, is there a way you can share your gratitude that is authentic to you?
+
+To those out there giving and guiding us on our journeys, know that even if it isn’t said directly, that what you do is important, beautiful, and deeply appreciated. Thank you for what you do, for the energy you bring, for the time you spend, for the space you hold. Thank you for being you, and sharing your light with the world. Thank you. <3
diff --git a/_writing/2018-06-27-digital-communication.md b/_writing/2018-06-27-digital-communication.md
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+---
+title: "Digital Communication"
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- communication
+- connection
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10160506926410414
+---
+It’s interesting the depth of conversation and topic you can explore, and how much you can connect and communicate with someone through digital means; even when you’ve barely interacted in the real world.
+
+Social media, chat, and other means of digital communication in this modern age can absolutely connect and deepen our relationships as human beings; when used as a tool in addition to the myriad of other experiences available to us.
+
+Using these digital tools consciously and actively to deepen, broaden, and explore our similarities and our uniqueness. Not just mindlessly scrolling, passively consuming and reacting to the little dopamine surges it induces.
+
+What’s your relationship with these digital tools like? Does it add to your life? How could you align the way you use and interact with them to reach your highest truth? To make and deepen those connections that ignite you.
+
+Are you passively connected to someone you would like to know and actively engage with? What’s stopping you? Is there something you could do right now to take a step towards that reality?
diff --git a/_writing/2018-07-09-comparisons.md b/_writing/2018-07-09-comparisons.md
@@ -0,0 +1,10 @@
+---
+title: "Comparisons"
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- comparison
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10160552620190414
+---
+As far as ‘comparison’, each person has their own story, strengths and challenges. While it can be interesting to see what others do, and maybe it ignites a goal or challenges within you you didn’t realise you had, ultimately you’re only competing against yourself, and improving over what you have done in the past.
diff --git a/_writing/2018-07-10-who-are-you-beneath-your-wounds.md b/_writing/2018-07-10-who-are-you-beneath-your-wounds.md
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+---
+title: "Who are you beneath your wounds?"
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- truth
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10160555751545414
+---
+This quote isn't mine, but was from [a post on Facebook](https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=395631837510614&set=a.158289491244851&type=3)
+
+> It just occurred to me that many people are actually afraid to heal because their entire identity is centered around the trauma they've experienced. They have no idea who they are outside of trauma, and that unknown can be terrifying.
+
+Which inspired the following words from me:
+
+> What are you holding onto that doesn’t serve you anymore? What would your life be like free of the old stories of your wounds? When you peel back all of the layers, who are you deep inside?
diff --git a/_writing/2018-07-11-musings-on-living-a-weird-life.md b/_writing/2018-07-11-musings-on-living-a-weird-life.md
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+---
+title: "Musings on living a weird life"
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- solitude
+- growth
+- reflection
+- journey
+- path
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10160559799055414
+---
+From my view, I often have been the outsider or not quite fit in or whatever; and in the past that caused me to question myself or want to change aspects to fit in, or just be super down about it or whatever. But over time I’ve kind of ‘come into my own’ with it.
+
+Yeah, I’m weird, and don’t fit into those boxes of societal norms, and I can be challenging and confronting to people who never question what’s outside that box, that are content in their blissful ignorance, the safety of the known and accepted. But you know what? I wouldn’t change who I am for the world.
+
+It may be the harder path, playing life on max difficulty, but in doing so you learn so much more, and get to explore so many features and aspects that you’d miss if you just blew through the main quest. It can be solitary at times, but that just gives me an opportunity to focus on understanding myself better, reflecting, learning and growing; so that when I do reach my light out into the world again, I can connect on a higher and truer level with those that I meet that align.
+
+And when I do meet those people; where we can truly connect and bond in the fullness of who we are, not looking to fill gaps within ourselves, but as a union greater than the sum of it’s parts; that is beautiful, and powerful, and so much more for the journey we each took to reach that place.
diff --git a/_writing/2018-07-24-musings-on-relationship-endings.md b/_writing/2018-07-24-musings-on-relationship-endings.md
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+---
+title: "Musings on relationship endings"
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- journey
+- acceptance
+- relationships
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10160610591490414
+---
+From a conversation this morning on love and relationships:
+
+I think I feel like people who are co-dependent are also those that can be so intense in their love, and so intense when it breaks down. And because of that and how common it is, that’s what people see as ‘normal’, and ‘normal’ is how it ‘should’ be.
+
+Which I feel is also why when I don’t react that way at the end of a rel for example, that’s when people get all uppity about me ‘not feeling’.
+
+Like, yeah it sucks that this thing that was good is ending, and it hurts, but I’ll feel and process that, and I’ll continue my life. I won’t ‘fight’ to ‘keep’ you, because you were never mine to possess. We shared a beautiful experience together, and I will forever get to hold that in my memory, along with the things I learned along the way; but now that experience is changing as we move on in our journeys, and that is ok.
diff --git a/_writing/2018-08-23-humanoid-machine.md b/_writing/2018-08-23-humanoid-machine.md
@@ -0,0 +1,14 @@
+---
+title: "Humanoid Machine"
+tags:
+- writing
+- poetry
+- burnout
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10160726805660414
+---
+Some form of semi-productive,
+sometimes efficient humanoid machine,
+churning out ideas and things;
+burning energy stores at 7ends;
+as the world whizzes by around me in a delirious haze.
diff --git a/_writing/2018-08-27-choose-your-battles.md b/_writing/2018-08-27-choose-your-battles.md
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+---
+title: "Choose your battles"
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- choices
+- rest
+- recovery
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10160740631240414
+---
+Know that every small bit you do to improve the world matters and counts.
+
+My personal belief is that if we focus too much on how many things are out there that need fixing it will bring us down, and realistically no one person can fix all the things. Choose our battles, and know that others will choose theirs, and together we will move the world to where it needs to be.
+
+Stressing/worrying too much over what we aren’t able to do/help with just leaves us less actual time/energy to contribute to what we can. And even though there may be a million causes and things we want to do in this world, know that we also need to create and protect space/time for our own needs and well being. We can’t pour from an empty cup, and to burn ourselves out by pushing too hard without care is going to leave us less capable of helping/positively contributing to the world. <3
diff --git a/_writing/2018-09-14-futurism-optimism-abundance.md b/_writing/2018-09-14-futurism-optimism-abundance.md
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+---
+title: "Futurism. Optimism. Abundance."
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- futurist
+- scarcity
+- abundance
+- ego
+- triggers
+- patterns
+- open-source
+- sharing
+- capitalism
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10160805514940414
+---
+“I don’t want to ask questions because I’ll look stupid”. So many silly little patterns and traumas society has programmed into our minds around these sorts of things.
+
+I feel like ultimately, if I could make myself redundant then the job I was doing probably wasn’t worth me doing it. Like if it’s some repeatable thing then automate it, etc. If someone learning what I know replaces the need for me, then either we aren’t chasing enough of that kind of work, or it frees me up to go and move on to solving another area.
+
+I feel like too much of societies thinking is stuck in that scarcity kind of mindset, needing to hoard/protect some finite resources, defending their territory and ego like their life depended on it. Too deeply identified with the emotions, triggers and patterns that they can’t even comprehend how it could be another way.
+
+I guess I take a more optimistic futurist abundance kind of standpoint. Tech advancement is accelerating at an exponential pace we can’t even really cognitively comprehend, and with that we are going to see entire classes of what used to be ‘scarce’ resources become freely available and abundant.
+
+I feel like we need to harness those sorts of things openly, and for the better good of the whole. If we had a single collective solve a problem properly, and make the solution available to all, we would save all of the effort of trying to solve that problem again and again in isolation, hoarding the result. And that frees everyone up to move on to solving the next problem.
+
+It’s why I believe in open source, open information/sharing, etc. Obviously there is still a $$ factor (at least at this stage), and so protect your ‘core business’ to still make your $$, but don’t needlessly abuse/inflate that price. Or if you end up with mega $$ like the big tech companies of the world, turn those resources to challenging the status quo and help to speed in this post-scarcity revolution.
diff --git a/_writing/2018-09-19-achievement-burnout-fun-freedom.md b/_writing/2018-09-19-achievement-burnout-fun-freedom.md
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+---
+title: "Achievement. Burnout. Fun. Freedom."
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- fun
+- freedom
+- rest
+- recovery
+- pattern
+- achievement
+- burnout
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10160825796120414
+---
+It’s an interesting feeling: breaking a pattern, and then giving yourself some time to just rest and exist. I feel like I always get myself into cycles of ‘achievement’/burnt out, and lately has definitely been the latter.
+
+I wonder how much of the meh in my world is just constant drawn out tiredness from always trying to do too much.. and I wonder what engineering more down time, fun and freedom into my patterns would feel like.
diff --git a/_writing/2018-09-23-just-existing.md b/_writing/2018-09-23-just-existing.md
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+---
+title: "Just Existing"
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- existing
+- depression
+- burnout
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10160838937040414
+---
+Those days when you find yourself just sort of existing, not knowing what you want to do, or what you enjoy; and knowing that there are some things you probably should do, but just can’t be bothered/don’t care enough. Where nothing is particularly ‘bad’ or ‘wrong’, but also nothing really seems to be worthwhile either. Just sort of going through the motions, mindlessly following patterns, aimlessly wandering around as time flows around you.
diff --git a/_writing/2018-12-22-in-this-moment.md b/_writing/2018-12-22-in-this-moment.md
@@ -0,0 +1,14 @@
+---
+title: "In this moment.."
+tags:
+- writing
+- musings
+- presence
+- reflection
+- choices
+crossposted:
+- https://www.facebook.com/ensquared/posts/10161166015025414
+---
+In this moment, with the information I have, knowing what I know, feeling what I feel; am I ok with this/want this/etc? If so, good; within my power I choose to continue/allow it. What comes from there is up to the rest of the people/universe, as I only have power over my own actions.
+
+If variables change in future, I will reassess then. But until that time, no reason to spend my energy/time pondering about a billion possible potentials that may never even eventuate. There are more interesting and beautiful things to find in this present moment.
diff --git a/_writing/2018-12-23-life-is-an-acquired-taste.md b/_writing/2018-12-23-life-is-an-acquired-taste.md
